He is Patient

We were driving back from having spent the day swimming with the family. We were all tired and resting in the car while Jef drove us home. Radio was off and we were enjoying the quiet. Suddenly I hear His voice so clearly in my heart saying “I’M not slow”.  I knew that I didn't say that to myself but it sounded as if I had.  In my defense I said “I didn’t say anything, Lord”. It was as if I had accused Him of being slow and He came back and said that.  I kept thinking about it, and to be honest it really bothered me.  I wrote it in my journal when we got home but deep down I was hoping it was a word for someone else.

After wrestling with my inner thoughts, I realized that He was speaking to me and that my heart was the one that accused Him of being slow. I searched the scriptures and found that He spoke to me straight from His Word.

2 Peter 3:9 The Lord is not slow in keeping His promise, as some understand slowness. He is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.

I've heard this and read it before but this day I knew that God really knows the heart. Psalm 44:21 For He knows the secrets of the heart

My prayer is that I will believe what He says in His word with every part of me and not be divided to say one thing and believe another.  I don’t want to be singing about how faithful He is and yet my heart says, He's really slow. 

Forgive me...Psalm 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.

Lord, we thank You that You are Faithful and patient with us. That You know and still care about the hidden secrets in our hearts and what we believe about You.  Keep us in Your mercy and in Your grace.  In Jesus' Name, Amen!